It's amazing how as a child/teenager you have everything planned out in your mind of how your life is going to be ( well you think supposedly =P)
Of course God is in complete control and you want His will in your life, but everyone has plans and goals, right?
Ever since I was a little girl I LOVED babies!!! I carried doll around forever! Anytime I got the chance to hold one of the babies in the church my arms were full, and I never wanted to give them up! Parents would say, "Are you sure you don't want me to take them?" Even though my arms hurt, I quickly shook my head, not wanting to give the baby back.
When I was 12 I got my first nanny job. I was so excited! I got to watch a two year old boy, Ethan, while his pregnant mommy ran errands. I'll never forget the first day I got to see the new baby after he was born. I was so excited! After she ran errands and came home I asked her if it was okay to hold the new baby. She said sure and I carefully took the baby out of the carseat (without knocking the baby out with the metal lock) and I knew just how to hold him. She was watching me carefully the whole time and as soon as I had the baby in my arms she said "I'm leaving him with you"!! Then I continued to watch the boys for the next 8 years as well as babysitting others.
I knew exactly what I wanted to be when I grew up.... a mom! I often told my mom and dad this; College is not for me, I just want to meet a great guy in church, get married, have kids, and be a housewife! I've always been weird like that, enjoyed cleaning, doing laundry, and watching kids.
So here I am today, I met that man of my dreams that loves God with all his heart, we got married, and he is my soul mate! We just recently bought our first home and I truly love taking care of it and my hubby! Cooking, cleaning, and laundry are all there in the picture too. Perfect time for a baby right?!
In April we will have been married for 5 years! I'm sure like everyone else has been asked (as soon as they got married lol!) "When are you going to have kids?" I have been asked that several times. I wish I could say that it's because we wanted to wait and travel the world and spend time with each other before settling down as a family....but unfortunately that's not the case. Don't get me wrong I am incredibly thankful for the years that we have had together! We have got to do so many things and have gone through things and grown together! I honestly believe those times would not have happened if we would have had a baby right away!
After several times of going to the doctors and them saying everything was fine, they finally said that they saw in my bloodwork a slight case of P.C.O.S. Thankfully it is slight because I hardly have any of the side effects! That's why it was so hard to find. They told me if I lost 5% of my body fat and went on this special diet that I could get rid of this.
Well once I started reading up on it I got frustrated. I couldn't believe how some foods that are healthy for you that I couldn't have because of the way my body handles them. Like bananas and carrots, crazy huh?! To people with P.C.O.S. it's like sugar! So I eventually gave up.
Then I started thinking about some of the things my Pastor, Brother Luke (my wonderful uncle) has always taught the church. Sure you can pray for a job, but God is not going to give you a job if your just laying at home praying about it! Yes, prayer is important, but you also need to get up and look for that job as well. Well I can sit here and pray and ask my family and friends to pray with me for a baby but if I'm not also doing what the doctor says, I'm not going to get anywhere!
So thats the reason for the title of this blog. Recently, Dan and I have talked long and studied hard on this. It's new to both of us and I know its going to be a lot of work! But we are ready for it and all the challenges that come with it.
We are very thankful to our family who is supporting us on this journey and would appreciate any extra prayers along the way!
Thank you to my works nutritionist that took the time to sit with me and give me all the advice I need to start out!
I would also like to thank God for my wonderful hubby who has been my rock by my side during this whole thing. Not once has he ever made me feel any less of a woman. He always made it seem like we never had a void in that area.
Most of all a big thanks to my wonderful Savior, Jesus Christ, who has allowed me to go through this and is continuing to mold me into the person He wants me to be for Him!
I hope all of you have a wonderful New Year and have great plans and resolutions ahead of you!!!
Love you all!!
